Empty Spaces.

Processed with VSCOcam with se3 preset Processed with VSCOcam with se3 preset Processed with VSCOcam with se3 preset Processed with VSCOcam with se3 presetTomorrow is the end of an era. Tomorrow I hand over the keys to my studio loft in DTLA and make the final trek back up to the Bay Area. I’ve been in LA for almost 4 years now and needless to say, it has been an unforgettable journey. From the hardships, the feeling of aloneness, and the difficulties making “real friends”, to the independence, the self-empowerment, creative maturation, and the eventual cultivation of lifelong friendships (finally) … all this and more has happened in my time here. I cannot quite describe the overwhelming sense of growth that has been the reality for me here in Los Angeles. A lot has changed, and I return back to the Bay Area an entirely different individual than I was when I left.

As I pack up the rest of my belongings in preparation for the drive up early tomorrow morning, I create this physical empty space, to fill the empty spaces that were once in my heart. By this, I mean I’ve missed my family, and have felt that I’ve been left out of moments I wanted desperately to be a part of but couldn’t be, because of the physical distance. I’ve been meaning to come home – to return to family and loved ones, and to continue carving out a unique career path that only I have the ability to manifest for myself. As much as I’ve said I don’t enjoy LA and the majority of the people within it, the truth is LA has become a big part of who I am, and I am thankful for all it has taught me … I wouldn’t be the person I am today without it.

To all my LA friends, I’ll be back soon, and often. I’m not done with LA yet, I just want to home-base where my heart is. To my Bay Area family and friends …

I’m coming home.


These amazing portraits are by the incredibly talented Andy Madeleine, view the rest when you click “CONTINUE READING” below.

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  • emily
    August 7, 2015

    Arnelle ! I always read your texts and love every pictures you take but I never write what I feel about it but this time I have to ! You look really sad and empty here, it’s crazy how your face is screaming… hope all is ok for you. much love <3

    • arnellelozada
      August 9, 2015

      Hi Emily! Thank you so much for your feedback/comment! Haha, all is definitely very well on my end and I’m incredibly happy. The photographer and I deliberately took photos that we wanted to feel more “stoic” or “emotionless”, so I’m glad that’s actually how the images translate! So don’t worry, it was intentional. 😉 Thank you for your concern though, very sweet of you. :)

  • nikk
    August 15, 2015

    Girl I love this t-shirt. Where can I get it ? thank for your help.

    • arnellelozada
      August 19, 2015

      Haha it actually belongs to a friend of mine. Let me ask him where he got it tmrw and I’ll get right back to you!

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